although ... its gotta be really. i have more than i did the last year, and im content, if not happy.
the reality is, im still in the same position i was 5 years ago, but older. im sure i'll feel better about the whole thing once it's over, but i got a lot of congratulations from friends and relatives after much prodding, but it's still an empty gesture to me, though i do know its heartfelt and honest.
i just dont feel celebratory yet. i'm heading off now to endure the celebratory rituals ... i.e. 4 hours 20 minutes of visiting relatives, friends, and merchants. i could probably start drinking sooner rather than later. anyway, i'm off to visit my mom in the city, and we'll do something to spend some time out. should be a little fun.
Current Mood: melancholy